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 ♥ R FOR REBECCA A little bit of narcissism won't hurt, and vanity isn't a sin. Email: rebeccaa.-@hotmail.com  Tagboard
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Since when i last blogged, i've decided to pen down my thought once again. I have never ever felt so serious before for the past 9 months or so. I don't know why. I have the urge to move on and never look back anymore. And i hope this urge will last me for long. Not only today, but forever. I always say i've seen through this issue, I wont dwell on it anymore. But i know i am lying to myself. Cos on the inside, i've never once get over it. But this time, i can feel its different. I am no longer lying to myself and i don't wish to do so anymore. I know i've been dragging and pinning high hopes on things which are not realistic. Coz i refuse to wake up from this beautiful dream. No, i shouldnt say its beautiful. I make it beautiful to lie to myself. It aint beautiful at all. I have done my best I shouldnt have anymore regrets. In fact, i've done more than what i am suppose to do. What i can say is that good things don't last when they are not appreciated. Food gets expired when you don't eat them on time. It applys the same to us as human beings. People around me are slapping me hard, telling me to wake up. I guess it only works when i slap myself. Cos its my problem and i have make the decision myself on which path should i go. Friends and families are there to give support, to decide on my behalf. Thank God i realise it now, before anything get worst. Now, i just wish to move on. Thereare so many things awaiting for me. I must move on (: Afterall, thanks for that person who has make me stronger. I am gonna live life like i've never lived, do things like i've never do before. You are not worth my tears, i won't shed a single tears for you, i won't lose a wrink of sleep. Coz replacing you is so damn easy. I was looking through some letters which i used to write with friends to encourage one another. And this particular phrase hit me strong. It says " Just treat it that God put different people into our life to test us, to modify us, to mould our character, to make us stronger". Its so damn true. Thanks to the many people who had always been there to give me support. Especially my dearest mom. I love you mommy. Of all the things i've believed in I just want to get it over with I've been searching deep down in my soul Words that i'm saying and hearing are starting to get old It feels like i'm starting all over again The last few months were just pretend Goodbye to you Goodbye to everything i thought i knew You were the one i loved The one thing that i tried to hold on to I want what's yours and i want what's I want you But i'm not giving in this time -Goodbye to you. |
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